Friday, February 13, 2009

Fighting the Blues


Struggling with a major attack of the blues and I don't know why. Life is pretty good. My friends came last night for an Inkspot Society meeting and we celebrated my friend Rosalie's birthday. My computer really works again. Yesterday was damp and gloomy but today is beautiful. The sun is shining and the tree branches are showing the first subtle shift that says that there will be a Spring in a month or so. There are spots of green showing where my yard was shovelled and by the tree where the squirrels like to sit. I got some grocery groceries - not frozen stuff from Schwans - (Soy Silk I have missed you) for the first time in quite a while. I should be feeling on top of the world but instead I just want to crawl back into bed and stay there. I have wordzzles to write and I don't feel like it. I barely managed my one single worzzle for yesterday's meeting. I missed Quilly's new challenge this week. Wrote the words down. Looked them up and then just forgot about doing it. I didn't visit anybody yesterday. I'm in a MAJOR funk. What really concerns me is I can't see a cause. I haven't (well until last night's birthday cake... which was EXTREMELY yummy), I haven't done one of my sugar binges. They often put me into this place when I indulge in stupidity. But this one seems to be looming out of nowhere.

So anyway, I'm whining. It's all I'm capable of at this particular moment. I'm pissed at the Congress. I'm glad that the snow is melting but I wish it would melt faster. I'm way glad to see some little birds returning but I can't even seem to get myself too excited about that. I know this will pass. It helps that the sun is out.

Sorry about whining. Sorry about not visiting. I know this will pass. Was going to post the branches to show the first sign of the Spring awakening, but my camera won't unload for some reason. Was going to post about prayer flags but it will have to wait for another day. Even though it's only 11:00 am, I think I'm going to go back to bed and take a nap. I still have wordzzles to tackle. Just a warning... they may be late.

Thanks for listening. Sorry about the whining.

9 comments:

Jeni said...

Raven - I just thought of something. Look out, when I think of "something" that could be dangerous. LOL But seriously, have you ever read the blog "This Eclectic Life" written by Texas storyteller, Shelly Tucker? If not, look up her blog on my favorite blogger listing and click into her "Only the Good Friday" posts. Then, try writing a post every Friday in which you turn the sometimes yucky side of life into seeing something positive hidden away there. Trust me, as one who frequently gets bogged down with depression too, it does help to change the way things are often viewed by us then and I've found it frequently helps begin to lift me out of some of the depression spells then. Worth a shot, isn't it?
Peace.

Jeni said...

It's me again! After I posted to your blog and continued down my reader, this morning's post by Shelly was the very next item in line for me to read so I copied over the url for it and here it is for you to read.
http://thiseclecticlife.com/2009/02/13/ac-cent-tchu-ate-the-positive-only-the-good-friday/
She writes a really good blog and this meme, I suppose you could call it that, is one that I betcha you could really get into too!

Kay said...

No need for "Sorry"

Venting is what the internet is there for I think.

Anyway, feel better :)

Akelamalu said...

Aw honey I'm so sorry to read you're so down. I know you'll be giving yourself Reiki but a little more won't hurt will it - so it's on the way. x

Lu' said...

I'm sorry you are feeling blue and an unexplained blue at that. Hey if you're gonna whine what better place to do it huh! Enjoy the sunshine. Hmm maybe you need to get some of the sun upon your bod, soak in the glory. Feel better...

Deborah Godin said...

Hope the blues take off soon, and never worry about the odd whine, we all indulge each other!

Travis said...

Funks come and funks go. But you know that. Hang in there!

Finding Pam said...

Sometimes you have to do what you have to do just to get through. I say be kind to yourself. It's ok if you want to go back to bed. I have done that before. Just know that this shall pass. I pray that your spirits will be lifted soon and that you will be up again. I think a lot of us experience this and there is no need for any apology. You will come around when you feel like it. Blessings sweet friend. I liked how you used bloggers for the wordzzle, especially mine. Have a good weekend. Think green for spring.

Alice said...

Hi Raven, I am very sad to hear your are feeling so down. I know from experience just how bad depression can be, and sometimes there is no real rhyme or reason for it to hit. I went from being such a happy-go-lucky gal to a very depressed woman, living in a very dark, black, world. I don't know that I would still be here on Earth had I not finally gone to my Dr. and gotten on meds for depression. Apparently depression comes with Fibromyalgia, just part of the package. I found that the meds brought me out of the black, yet they didn't return me to being a happy person... I had a lot of work to do on myself. Now, finally, I am happy again. I sometimes wonder if I could stay happy and well if I got off the meds, and I know that the dead of winter is not the time to find out.

I hope you are feeling better soon. HUGS!!