Sunday, November 16, 2008
Gratitude, Day 16
Well, I didn't want to get up as early as I did and as usual, it turns out that I could have stayed in bed a bit longer, but there is still much to be grateful for today.
First, my nephew is still coming. The predicted awful weather hasn't arrived. Of course he's going to be about two or three hours later than I expected. He is his mother's son. I have just enough of my mother in me that I'm surprised. My punishment, I guess, for the fact that I always found it very amusing that she never accepted the fact that my sister never got anywhere on time.
My family - my mother in particular - operated on what I call The Basic Worry System. It's an uncomplicated process. You worry about everything. I always give them random numbers for fun. Using today as an example: Basic worry #885, "you will oversleep or won't get up on time. Basic worry #355... he will be early. (???!!HAH! - but it's on the list anyway... even though the chance of that happening is...well, remote...) This is rapidly followed by Basic worry #600... He will be late.... and basic worry #3000: He won't come at all. Immediately followed by basic worry #40 - the weather is going to be bad and it's unsafe for him to come. Then there are more mundane basic worries like the coffee will stink and the house will make him sneeze and....
So anyway, I just finished messaging with Matt. He's in Hartford. He expects to get here in 2-3 hours which probably means 3-4. I'm grateful that I have a sense of humor and enough self-awareness to counteract the basic worry system with a willingness to just let he day unfold on its own terms.
Another gratitude for today is that Nate and Dan have apparently found a free microwave (they've tested it and know it works) for me and are planning to bring it over at some point. Of course the basic worry system kicks in here too on two fronts. First, will my expected visits intersect? Will they like each other? Alternate basic worry. Will I kill myself or the cats using the microwave? Where will I put it? Will I be able to figure out how to use it.... will there be space for it.... agggghhhhhh! As you can guess, it's not entirely easy being me. I used to have a wonderful poster of a funny looking penguin hanging in my kitchen that said that. It made me laugh. I'm grateful for Instant Messages so that I the basic worry system gets mitigated by communication.
I'm also grateful that the library lady came yesterday and took another 5 boxes of books. Now I need to get myself going and reorganize the shelves. They are not as empty as I thought they'd be.
But what I'm most grateful for today is another visit with my nephew. And right in this instant, I'm grateful that coffee is perked and I can go make myself some breakfast before my guest arrives whenever he gets here. Maybe I'll even get an inspiration for OSI now that I have a little extra time.... maybe....
Have a great day!